Reno_R_Psychopathic's Blog
Confussions of Love
July 26, 2008
What is love??? Its an interesting question. Mostly because it has no real answer to it. Some say true love is suicide. Some say love hurts. Some say that love is the closest a person can ever get to heaven. Some say that love is addiction. There really is no right or wrong answer. Except for this: Love is a feeling you can't escape from. You can't choose to love. Love chooses you. It lifts you up to heaven and sometimes drags you down to the pits of your own personal hell. There is no escape from it. No cure to it. No way to stop it from happening. No way to decide who you feel these feelings for. Once bitten never cured as they say. If this does not ring true with your feelings for another. If you say these three words "I Love You" by choice, because you want to feel this way for someone. Because you fear what will happen if you don't. Because you think you should for their sake. Then what you feel is false. A fake, a lie in its purest form. What you feel is not what I feel now. You will know love when you encounter it. You will never forget that feeling. You will never be able to control true love and you will never fall out of love. You may love again as I have, but the feelings you feel for the ones you loved in times past will remain always. Sometimes these feelings leave a scar on your soul. "Scar" the perfect description right there. Because just like love a scar can never be erased. Time will heal all wounds and the pain will one day pass for good, but the scar will always remain. So in summary love is not something you decide to have. Its something you feel. Denying it gets you nowhere. You can't run from it. It won't just go away and true love only becomes stronger over time. So when the time is right. When your ready to say these words. You don't just say them. You confess as I am now. When you choose to admit it to yourself and to the one you love, how you choose to do it. These are not important. Because what you say comes from the heart and the soul. There is no line to fear crossing. No rejection to consider facing. Because these are not the point of your confession. You do not confess your love to win the affections of another. You confess your love to that person to purify your own soul. If they do not love you, if they reject you, if you cross a line and scare them away. Does it change the fact that your in love? If you answered yes. Then what you feel is not true love. Most likely you have confused love with lust. Needing with wanting. If this happens then you cannot begin to understand what love really is. You do not feel as I feel at this moment. You will know love when it comes, you will never be unsure. You will understand not what it is, but how it is once you find your first true love as I did sometime ago and then if you come to fall in love again with another as I now have. You will recognize what you feel. Like an old friend come home to you. Providing warmth deep within you when you need it most.
So this is my confession to something that is by now quite obvious to me and most likely obvious to the girl I'm confessing to. Like I said the time and way you confess is not important. If your words come from the heart. Then nothing else matters. So my words are simply "I LOVE YOU" Three simple words. Sometimes hard for a lot of people to say, but if it is difficult to muster up courage to say them. More than likely they are not truthful. These words are easy for me to utter because I mean them. Because they change nothing. Everything thing that would have happened still will and everything that doesn't happen was not meant to take place. Three simple words won't change the way fate chooses to deal its cards and whatever cards get dealt won't change how I feel about her. Not ever. Love is eternal and has no end, sees no change. Relationships start and relationships crumble, but true love is forever.
This blog follows my latest youtube video upload. My confession is to a girl that I have fallen for recently. I don't need to name names because this girl knows who she is and she knows this confession of love is directed to her, but this blog on the other hand is directed at everyone here and everyone the world over. It can also be found on the description section of my "Confessions of Love" video which can be watched on Renovision (my youtube channel, http://www.youtube.com/RenoRPsychopathic) My hope is that it can be of help to others here and the world over who are struggling with love, the search for love, or simply struggling to determine whether what they feel is actually love or something much different and less meaningful